Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Spring Comes Softly

The baby is getting big and starting to occasionally entertain himself, which I am so thankful.  Lately I've been able to wash the clothes, dry them, fold them AND put them away all while he's entertaining himself or catnapping! 
 
Yesterday was a rough day filled with emotional dentist appointments, cable appointments and what not, that I decided I was going to do something for myself that didn't involve scrapping.  As I sat down, I started browsing ScrapMatters and came across this month's Colour Challenge hosted by designer, KimB.  Then it hit me, I missed designing.  Yes its true, I am on an extended maternity leave, but I still miss opening Photoshop to design something rather than just scrapping something.  So I opened my program and started feverishly working on a mini kit for the challenge.  If I finished it, great.  If I didn't finish it, I'd eventually get around to finishing it.  There was no rush or requirement.  It was something that I was doing for fun and while I had some time.  Here and there, throughout the afternoon and evening I was able to put together and small mini.  And then this morning, while the baby was content in his bouncer, I was able to check the mini kit for quality as well as package and upload it to a site.  I was so excited to see a kit come together in record time, since having the baby!! 

This afternoon, I uploaded my mini kit to ScrapMatters gallery as well as linked it up!
Do you want to see?
Of course you do!!


So how can you get this lovely mini?
Its easy, head on over to my gallery at ScrapMatters and pick up the mini kit.
You can follow this link.
Leave some love and download through Box or Mediafire.
But hurry, the download links will be removed June 1, 2013.
 
Let's see what else I can muster up over the next few weeks and see about getting out of this extended maternity leave!  Even though I am excited about designing this mini, it all depends on this little baby and him occupying himself as well as getting through the summer months with my children.  We are planning on a month-long visit to my folks house and during that time taking the older girls to Dorney Park and Wildwater Kingdom since we bought the entire family a season pass.  It should be fun, and a lot of time offline, spending time as a family!  I am excited to see what this summer brings.
Hopefully in the fall months, the baby will be older, school will have resumed and I'll have time to design since I've been missing it very much!  We'll just have to see what the next few weeks and months bring our family.
 
Until next time . . . .
 

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Mommy Review

The last time I did my mommy review on Baby Einstein's Sea Dream Soother, which I still love and thank God every time I press the button, watching the baby fall asleep!  It is a sanity-saver!
 
Today I would like to review a new to me product, BioGaia
(or follow this link)
What is BioGaia?
Its a probiotic specially formulated for baby's digestive health. 
 
But what is a probiotic?
Probiotics are bacteria that help maintain the natural balance of organisms (microflora) in the intestines. The normal human digestive tract contains about 400 types of probiotic bacteria that reduce the growth of harmful bacteria and promote a healthy digestive system. The largest group of probiotic bacteria in the intestine is lactic acid bacteria, of which Lactobacillus acidophilus, found in yogurt with live cultures, is the best known. Yeast is also a probiotic substance. Probiotics are also available as dietary supplements.
 
It has been suggested that probiotics be used to treat problems in the stomach and intestines. But only certain types of bacteria or yeast (called strains) have been shown to work in the digestive tract. It still needs to be proved which probiotics (alone or in combination) work to treat diseases. At this point, even the strains of probiotics that have been proved to work for a specific disease are not widely available.
--Taken from Web MD
 
So why would I talk about BioGaia?
 
Well if you were around me when my son was born, you would have known that my little boy cried non-stop because he had really bad gas and constipation.  We took him to the doctors and they said to increase his fluids by adding water to his forumla.  Once home, we watered down his formula and he stopped drinking because the taste was terrible.  Back to the doctor we went and we played the switching game, changing him from milk-based formula to soy based formula over to a sensative stomach formula all the way to the current formula, Enfamily Gentlease.  We agreed to keep him on this formula because it was the one formula that caused the last amount of gas and constipation even though it was still pretty bad!
 
A couple days later the baby was still very constipated and constantly crying.  We ended up taking him back to the doctor where it was recommended to give him prune juice to get him going again.  If that didn't work, we were to check his temperature rectally in hopes that it would stimulate his urge to go to the bathroom.  I bought prune juice and forty minutes later, he went potty.  He finally stopped crying, at least for ten minutes and then he was back to crying non-stop.

I had it.  I needed to put a stop to this.  I felt terrible knowing he was in pain and needed some relief.
 
Earlier in the month, I had heard about BioGaia on the baby message board and decided to read as much as I could about the product.  Then when I couldn't find anything more to satisfy my curiousity, I asked my mother who is a nurse.  She explained to me what a probiotic was and how I would take a probiotic (acidophilus) when on medication.  I just never realized it was a probiotic.
 
At that point, I figured if I took it and had no problems with it, I would at least give it a try with the baby.  After calling around to several Walgreens, one of the few places that carry the brand, I found a store that had it in stock.  I drove to the store, picked up the product, came home and gave it to the baby.  I didn't see immediate results, but gave it to him the following day.  It wasn't until the third day that my son went potty all by himself.  Over the remainder of the week, I noticed that my son's crying was slowly coming to an end and he seemed more happier being able to go potty without any pain or constipation.
 
He has been on the product for over a month.  In fact I just bought three more months worth of the product because it is a hard product to find in our area.  During the past month, my baby has gone potty not once, but two, three, sometimes four times a day!  His gas that would cause him so much pain is still there, but its like it is supposed to be--not painful!
 
Would I recommend BioGaia?
YES!
I can't emphasize how much I would recommend this product.  If I could get a bumper sticker I would put it on my car!  This is an amazing product and I would recommend it to any mother, especially if they went through what our family went through.
 
Does this mean my baby doesn't cry?
No, he still cries, but it is nothing like those first five weeks of his life and it is generally because he is hungry, tired or something else and not because he can't go potty or the gas is too unbearable!
 
How do I give this to my baby?
Its easy, every morning before his first bottle, I shake the little container (its approx 3 inches in height) and drop five droplets in to his mouth.  To make sure he gets it, I'll stick his bottle in his mouth where he'll start sucking down his formula and the BioGaia.  Its really easy to give to him.  In fact, lately, the baby has been opening his mouth when I bring the BioGaia to his face, knowing it is part of his morning ritual.
 
So where can you get BioGaia?
 
The only store I have seen it at is Walgreens.
I've been told its cheapest at Costco, but I dont have a membership to confirm that they sell it and that it really is cheapest.
You can also get it directly throught their website, Everidis
as well as through Amazon
 
And just so you know, BioGaia isn't just for babies!
There is a whole line of products for the growing child and adults!
 
Also for the record, I am not affiliated with BioGaia in any way.  I am just a happy mother who saw fabulous results from this product and had to share them with my readers!
 
Until next time . . . .

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Animal Nicknames

My girls are obsessed with animals and animal prints!  Around Christmas, I bought them each a blanket and told them to decide amongst themselves, without fighting, which blanket they wanted.  Almost as soon as I said that, the girls had agreed on which blanket they were taking; the oldest wanted the zebra print and the youngest wanted the cheetah print. Such an easy decision for them.  Mama was very happy and the girls loved their new, soft blankets!
 
Over time, the girls developed a deeper obsession with their animal print blanket.  Before the baby was born, we were trying to decide on a theme for his room, bedding, etc.  It was a hard decision, because I didn't want the typical boy sports theme or space theme.  So we decided on a bright colored jungle theme room for the baby.

Around Valentine's Day, a few days before the baby's due date, the girls and I were out shopping.  They had found some animal print toys and went wild over them.  It was then that I asked the girls what animal print the baby would be and almost immediately they said "a giraffe" So upon check-out we bought the baby his very first giraffe stuffed animal that the girls have since named "Riley"
 
Since this time I had been looking for a kit that included a cheetah print, zebra print and giraffe print so I could scrap my children's crazy animal obsession.  Earlier this month, LDrag came out with this amazing kit, Jungle Safari Party
She also has clusters, alphas and journal cards and more! 
If you want, you can check out or pick up her Jungle Safari Party Sweet Deal to get it all in one purchase or store link.
 
When I saw this kit, I knew it would be perfect for my girls!
With their help, I created each of them a page showing off their animal print blanket
 
Child number one:
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Child number two:
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After I was done scrapping their pages, the oldest pipes up and says "what about the baby?" while the youngest says, "yeah, he needs his own page"  Thus bringing child number three's layout
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At the time of this photo (5 days old) he did not have a giraffe blanket, but he loved his giraffe blankie toy that his grandparents, my parents, got him at birth.  I am pleased to say that this weekend, the little boy finally got his very first giraffe blanket, just like his sisters but crib size.
 
After looking at the three pages, I knew if I were to put these in an album, one page would be left behind and not with the other two.  I also noticed that none of the pages had journaling, something I try to do on almost every single layout.  So I decided to do a fourth page tying it all together.  It took a lot of thought, of how I was going to tie in all three children's animal print in to one cohesive layout.  Later that day, I was able to create this fourth layout that ties the other three together, for a fabulous four-page spread
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Now can I brag for a moment?
Not only are these four layouts, something that showcase my children, but as a proud scrapper moment, Michi posted my layout in the Gallery Standout Thread at ScrapMatters! 
If that wasn't awesome, I just discovered earlier today that my layout was picked up for the Gallery Standout Showcase blog post at ScrapMatters!
 
I was so excited because not only was I able to scrap my children's crazy animal obsession, but people got to see the layouts,  see this fabulous product from Lina and hopefully be inspired.
 
I've also been told the last layout, bringing the other three together was amazing.  Looking back, I realized I hadn't used a template, so today I sat down and created Pixie Plate #263
 
It is true, my store at GingerScraps has closed while I am enjoying our little man, who is nine weeks old today.   But that is good news for you because anything I make, more than likely will be given away for free on my blog such as this template!
 
How do you get this template?  Its easy, all you have to do is say "hello" as I miss the adult conversation  Having a newborn baby and homeschooling the older two children doesn't allow for much time for me to get out of the house.  I miss talking with adults and having normal adult conversation!  Just the other day we were talking about the Wiggles and their cast change they had since the middle child and the youngest.  And don't get me talking about the color and consistency of my baby's you know what--crazy what new mommies talk about!! 
 
I know, an exciting life, right?  At least right now Im enjoying our little boy and our older girls, while they are young.  At the end of the day, that is all that matters.
 
So stop on by, say hello and while you are at it feel free to download Pixie Plate #263
(available in tiff, psd, psp and individual png files)
here at Box or here at 4Shared
 
But dont forget my four pages couldn't have been possible if it weren't for the fabulous Lina creating Jungle Safari Party.

Until next time . . . . 

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Mommy Review

So if you have ever read my blog you know that there is quite the age span between my middle and youngest child-we are talking almost nine years.  When we found out we were pregnant with this little boy, we realized we were basically starting over again.  What we knew from our first two children was not going to be the same with this little one!  Nine months passed with me reading review after review, unsure of what to get, trying to find what we used to have only to discover it isn't sold any more or its been replaced by a different brand that was better.  It was very overwhelming. 
 
Now that we've had this little boy, I've had time to think about our purchases and discover what products I really could and couldn't live without!  Today's review is about what soothes the baby, Baby Einstein Sea Dreams Soother

Here is the link Baby Einstein Sea Dream Soother
**it is cheaper at Target, especially if you use your 5% Target card**
 
So why do I like this fish tank and why didn't I go with the Fisher Price brand like I did with my other two children? After reading a lot of reviews, the Baby Einstein soother had better reviews.  The biggest review was that the Baby Einstein brand's music/noise lasted a lot longer than five minutes, something I was looking at when comparing the two.

Now that we are home, I can tell you that we have replaced the batteries on our Baby Einstein Sea Dreams Soother twice!  We use it that much!!  On the top left side of this soother, there is a little light that pops on when the batteries need to be changed, instead of making you guess if its time to change the batteries.
 
Let me first start off by saying that the soothing noise/music lasts at least fifteen minutes, if not longer.  There are several different settings that you can use.  At nighttime, we use just the water soother feature without the lights and movement.  During the day, we use the motion, light and music feature to entertain the baby. 
 
At every nighttime feeding, I press the star in the lower left hand corner, and start to change my son's diaper.  When he's changed and swaddled, I press the star again to restart the noise and begin to feed my son.  The whole time he's eating, the soothing sounds are in the background, lulling him to back to sleep.  When he's done feeding, I lay our son back down in his crib and restart the soother where it lulls him back to sleep! There have been several times that I've placed our son, wide awake, in his crib and pressed the starfish only to come back 15 minutes later to see he has put himself to sleep listening to the soothing noise.

Another great feature of this soother is it comes with a star fish remote control that you can start and stop the soothing music/sounds without entering the room. The only catch is it has to be within a fifteen foot range of the soother. We live in old housing with very squeaky floors.  As I move in and out of his room, it often wakes him up.  So I am able to use the remote control to stop and restart the noise if it is coming to an end of the cycle.  Either that at night when he begins to whimper, but not fully awake, I'll go to his door and press the remote control.  The soothing nature sounds starts up and he goes right back to sleep, allowing me a little bit more time to sleep before the next feeding. 
 
My only negative experience with this soother is sometimes I have difficulty starting the soother with the remote control and have to physically go in to the room to start the soother.  But once it is going, it recognizes the soother.
 
If I had to do it all over again, would I buy this product? 
Yes!
I love this product and recommend it to any parent who is expecting a child, a grand parent looking to buy for their grandchild or even as a baby shower present!  This is truly a Godsend and something I am thankful we spent the money to buy!

Sunday, April 07, 2013

Six weeks already?

I can't believe it has been six weeks since our little boy was born.  He sure is keeping this mommy very busy with his lack of sleep and activity.  Just the other night he was awake every half-hour overnight and wide awake the next day making it hard for any naps!  I think he has hit his 6-week growth spurt as all he does is eat and eat and eat!
 
Earlier this week, I took the baby to the doctor because he had a suspicious rash, congestion and vomiting/spitting up--all that he's been doing since birth.  While at his appointment, I got some answers as well as got his weight.  He currently weighs 10lbs, 1oz.  with his length being in the 75 percent tile and his weight being in the 5 percent tile.  According to the doctor he is a little underweight and will address it at his two month check-up later this month. 
 
Two weeks ago, the baby started smiling when you talk to him and earlier this past week he has started laughing.  Just over the weekend his daddy was talking to him and said, "you don't even know who I am" and then the baby got a big grin on his face followed by giggles!  It was too cute, something I hope to capture on the video camera soon!  

Yesterday I tried to get a photo of the baby smiling, since he was in a fairly good mood.  In all the many photos that I took, not once did he smile or laugh!  So today I asked the oldest which photo she liked best.  This was her favorite photo:

The kit used is Neverland Scraps Anticipation
 
He's getting so big, but he's so little--if that makes sense!  Last week, my husband had gone in to the baby's room to check on him sleeping, before going to bed himself.  When he walked in, he walked right out and got me out of bed.  The baby had gotten out of his Halo SleepSack-Swaddle, turned himself over on his stomach and had inched his way all the way to the top of his crib!  We flipped him back, rewrapped him in the sleepsack and hope he doesn't do it again.  But he is a very busy and very active little boy.  I imagine in a few more weeks, I'll have to stop swaddling him if he's already breaking free of the sleepsacks and trying to crawl!
 
Well that's about enough from me.  Life has been busy.  Tomorrow we hope to go to the Tidal Basin here in Washington, D.C. and see the Cherry Blossoms that should be in peak bloom.  The girls are excited, because this is our favorite time of the year to view the Nation's Capital!  Hopefully I'll have some beautiful photos to show you when I return and hopefully the baby is a good boy, allowing this Mama to take many photos!
 
Until next time . . .

Tuesday, April 02, 2013

Store Closing

That's right, you have read it right.....

Neverland Scraps is closing her GingerScraps store.

Right now through April 5th, all products are 50% off with a lot of products in the $1.00 Bake Sale! You wont want to miss out on this awesome sale before everything is gone!

Now please dont be too upset. While my store is closing, it is just a temporary thing. Right now I need to focus on my son who has some issues that need to be addressed. He has proven to be a handful and I can't commit to designing. So to be fair to Ginger and the awesome design team, my store will be closing. But when I am ready to come back to designing, Ginger has already told me I have a place at GingerScraps. Just for the time being, I need to focus on my newborn son and older children.

I will be back, I just dont know when. So for now, take advantage of my sale through April 5th
You can find all of Neverland Scraps products here at her GingerScraps Store

Wednesday, March 06, 2013

Our Baby Has Arrived

**this is a LONG post**

After a long journey, our little boy has finally arrived safely and healthy.  On the day of my scheduled induction, our little baby decided to come early and without being induced.  There were a few scary moments where his heart beat dropped in the low 40's, being told we would have to have an emergency c-section, to being told the baby had gone potty (meconium) and that would cause more problems all the way to a very fast delivery--so fast that our two older children didn't have time to be escorted to the visitors lounge and witnessed their little brother's birth! 
 
Before I show you the birth announcement, let me show you a few photos that were dressed up Neverland Scraps Anticipation and Anticipation {clusters}
 
This is the last day that I was pregnant. Sadly, I already miss his movements, but am so excited to be able to hold him in my arms.
 
Because the girls were in the room while the baby was born, they were the first people to meet him as my husband was still at my side.  They were a little scared (not of the birth process, but if William was okay or not) so  you can see where their noses are a little red from crying.  Luckily, even though it was a bumpy road, our little man was born healthy--with the exception of having an upper respiratory infection due to going potty before birth.
 
Lastly here is Mama with her new little baby--the baby that the girls call a "time stealer"
 
So I'm sure everyone is wondering about the details.....this is the birth announcement that was sent to Winkflash and sent out to friends and family
 
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So our little man, William John, was born on February 19, 2013 at 9:46am. 
He weighed 8lbs, 2oz and measured 20 inches long
 
I knew I needed to scrap William's birth story before I forgot, so here is my two page spread about his birth
 
page one:
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Page two:
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So what does that journaling say?
If you want to read it, here is William's birth story, with some details deleted

Mama was scheduled to be induced on Tuesday, February 19, 2013 at **name of hospital and location removed**.  On the morning of her induction, she was to call Labor and Delivery at 5:30am to see if there were any beds available.  That morning, Mama was already awake, nervous with anticipation of finally being able to meet her little boy.  Daddy woke a few minutes earlier than his alarm clock and called Labor and Delivery for Mama as she finished getting ready.  After getting off the phone, Daddy told Mama that there was a bed available and we were to come in as soon as we could.  Mama headed downstairs to eat breakfast, as she knew once the induction started she wouldn’t be allowed to eat.  After Daddy was dressed, he woke both of the girls so they too could get ready to leave.  M and B were coming to the hospital, but were not staying for your birth.  Later in the morning, after Mee-Mom’s shift was over, Mee-Mom and Grumpy would be driving to the hospital so that they could pick up the girls and head back to the house until you were born. 
 
We arrived at the hospital around 6:30am.  The nurse showed us to our room, where Mama would be induced, and told Mama to get changed in the hospital gown.  Once changed, Mama took a few photos of her pregnant belly with the family.  Around 7:30, the nurses hooked Mama up to a monitor to see if she were having any contractions as well as to monitor future contractions.  Not long after being hooked up to the monitor, the nurse asked Mama if she felt the tightness in her belly.  Of course Mama felt it, she thought you were just moving and adjusting within her belly.  As it turned out, they were contractions; she just didn’t realize they were contractions.  Even though Mama was having contractions, they weren’t steady (happening 2-3 minutes apart) and weren’t strong enough to have you, but it was exciting to see that Mama was having contractions. 
 
Around 8:00, Mama’s midwife came in to the room to check Mama for progress, talk about the induction as well as answer any questions about what was going to happen.  The midwife told Mama that her cervix was soft, but very closed, meaning her body wasn’t ready to have a baby.  The midwife also thought you were breeched, so she did another ultrasound to make sure your head was down.  Mama was so relieved that your head was down and you weren’t breeched, but she was very nervous hearing you were very high, another sign you were not ready to be born.  After talking with Mama, the midwife gave Mama a ¼ pill of Cervidil in hopes that it would soften her cervix more, allowing it to open when the induction started.  The midwife told Mama that they wouldn’t start the induction (Pitocin) until about 4 hours after the pill had been given, meaning Mee-Mom and Grumpy had plenty of time to get to the hospital, since Mama wouldn’t start her induction until it was closer to noon.  With that news, Daddy called Mee-Mom so they knew what to expect.  After the phone call, Daddy started a movie for the girls while Mama answered the admitting questions that the nurse had to fill out. 
 
An hour later went by; lots of questions were asked and answered.   During one of the questions that the nurse was asking, Mama had a contraction that was a little painful.  To get past the pain, Mama held her breath.  Little did she know that the nurse noticed your heart rate dropping during the contraction.  She told Mama to breathe, but your heart rate wouldn’t come back to normal.  She was very nervous and told Mama to roll over to her right side.  Your heart rate still didn’t come back to normal.  The nurse called in another nurse who helped Mama roll from one side to the other.  Finally, when Mama was on her back, your heart rate came back to normal.  It was then that the nurse told Mama if your heart rate continued to drop, they would have to do an emergency c-section for your safety.  Mama started crying, not because of the thought of getting a c-section, but the thought that something might be wrong with you.   The nurse left the room to let the ob doctor know of the heart rate dropping with the contraction so he was aware, since he would be the one who would do the c-section.

9:20 Mama asked her nurse if she could please go to the bathroom as she had been holding it for almost an hour.  The nurse looked at Mama’s monitor and decided she could head to the bathroom.   Around 9:30, Mama came back to the bed and was hooked back up to the monitor.  Two minutes later, Mama had another contraction, immediately felt sick to her stomach and Mama said, “Either I just wet the bed, or my water just broke” Followed by “oh I’m going to puke” and the nurse handed her a basket in case she got sick.  A minute or so later, Mama felt better, and the nurse checked to see if Mama’s water had broken only to discover that you had gone potty.  The nurse left to let the ob doctor and pediatrics doctor know, since both of them had to be present since you passed meconium.  Mama told Daddy that he might want to call Mee-Mom and let her know that they might not make it to your birth.  During the phone call Mama had another contraction, this one a little bit stronger than the last one.  After Daddy got off the phone, Mama had another contraction to which she yelled, “Daddy get the nurse, Im having this baby”  Daddy rang the call bell, with no response and then ran out of the room to get the nurse. 
 
The nurse, followed by a dozen other nurses and two doctors came running in the room.  The midwife checked Mama and said, “I can’t believe you are ready to have this baby.  I feel his head right there” She held your head to prevent you from being born, while Mama had another contraction and told Mama “do not push, we aren’t ready” At that time, Daddy tried to get M and B out of the room, but there wasn’t any time to escort them in the visitors lounge so they had to stay and see your birth.  Once the birthing area was set up, the midwife told Mama to push.  Mama was confused and said, “I’m not having a contraction” but the midwife said to push anyways.  No contraction and two pushes later at 9:46am, you were born!

There you go, the birth and story of our little man that is truly a miracle and blessing from God.  Even through my sleepless nights, I still cry at the fact that after all of these years, God has blessed us with a beautiful little boy.  He truly was worth waiting for all these years!
 
 

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Thankful Tuesday

I am so sorry I didn't get this up sooner! I completely forgot to post this. I also can't believe it is March already! Wow how time flies. Today or tonight rather I have a page starter for you. I am not big on green but I absolutely loved this! Here is the preview of the portion I used:
and here is the previews of Neverland Scraps other Lucky Me products
 
You can find these at her store at GingerScraps here
Here is a preview of the freebie I made for you
You can download it here

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Thankful Tuesday

Hello :) Hope everyone is having a splendid Tuesday! Today I was playing with Neverland Scraps Queen of Hearts. And made a freebie cluster frame for you! You can Download it here You can find Queen of Hearts here Enjoy :) !!

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Thankful Tuesday

Hi Everyone! Hope everyone is finding their Tuesday to be the greatest! Have you seen Anticipation? Stunning baby boy kit!!! I love the soft blues!! and perfect for the those newborn pictures!!! I really loved seeing it and making a freebie for you! This time I made a 5x7 frame but if you add one of Neverland Scraps paper from Anticipation you can make it into a birth announcement, add you a photo and type in your information about your bundle of joy! Gosh it has been 14 years since my last bundle of joy and every time I see some one else having a bundle of joy well I kinda get jealous :)I so love babies!!! They just grow up too fast!!! I hope that you enjoy this freebie and your new little bundle!! I really hope you don't have any problems with the download. I have been having problems with my internet running really slow. I will check back to make sure so if you have problems please please check back later. I get off work and be home about 3:00. I apologise in advance if you do have problems. You can download here And you can find Anticipation here And if you scroll down to the next post you can see previews :)